the many thoughts inside this head

so all of this life of mine has been running around in circles and i keep trying to break that circle and turn it into a straight line of some sort.....where that line may start and end who the fuck knows but im ok with that.....my art abilities have been non stop here recentally and i cant get all the ideas in my head out onto the canvas or paper or whatever media i may be using at the time....im getting them out slowly and im becoming more commfortable inside my own head without all the pressure to keep these thoughts locked up in solitary confinement....they sit there getting worse and worse or better and better . . .depends on how you look at it....but im very happy with the way im able to bring them out in a controlled manner onto the canvas. . . once i get my new camera these thoughts and ideas of mine will be public for all of you to see....i have sooo many half finished projects on my list right now. . . not all paintings. . . i have a few collages. . .paintings. . .and even a few sculptures waiting to just be finished. . .i never knew that whatever is wrong with this brain of mine could turn out to be a good thing in my artistic nature. . . everything is slowly going in the direction that i want it to for once and i really dont know how to handle it all. . . but im making it work for me. . .i realized early that my brain sees things that "normal" people dont see and i look at things in ways that not many others do....and once i figured out how to control it and use it to my advantage it creates things that are beyond my own belief sometimes. . .im to emotional for my own good but im ok with that. . . im ready to share all of it with the world and see what happens. . . you people will see these ideas in the near future. . .so be prepared. . .